Yes, I'm back after such a long, long time. It's funny how when you're sad you have so much of nothing to say, but when you're happy you're having too much fun to say anything at all.

Yes, Ms. Lifeblood has found shelter from the storm that is Depression. I am currently taking the lowest available dosage of Paxil, and so far, it's working miracles. I feel great, I have energy, I even retain my creativity!

Unfortunately, Paxil has not resolved my social woes. I am still as socially inept as ever, but thankfully, I worry about it less.

As Ms. Eden (I learned how to link after all!) mentioned, we both attended a Halloween party on Saturday. I'm still reeling from the sensory overload--too many beauty queens, doctors, hippies, draculas and butterflies all at once. I seriously liked my costume the best, and that's a first. I hardly ever dress up for Halloween, but this year, I got very into it.

My costume fulfilled a childhood dream of mine. As a child, I would often play at being rescued by Luke Skywalker. Yes, this Halloween I was Princess Leia, complete with buns on the sides of my head and a blaster at my belt. I looked cool.

At the party I apparently fulfilled several other young men's childhood dreams.

"I've always wanted to meet you," said a dubiously dressed up Burt Reynolds. Flattered, I obliged by shaking his hand.

"I've been in love with you my whole life, and now here you are..." another young man said dreamily.

Yes, here I am; but not even as Princess Leia could I pull off the illusion of social normalcy. I've decided I don't like loud parties. It was dark, I didn't know many people, and I found myself standing in awkwardness, looking around at everyone else who seemed to be having much more fun than I was. If I managed to engage in conversation at all, we both spent time saying, "What?" "Huh?" The beat of the techno music drowned out anything resembling small talk. People were there to get down and party, and that is just not my scene. I guess.

Princess Leia's debut was a mixed reception. She has the opportunity to redeem herself tonight at yet another party. I'll keep you updated on that story.

May the force be with you.

 

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